Had bad pregnancy and father wasnt ready for a baby but i didnt want a termination, was not planned but werent taking precautions either. I choose to keep the baby and knew i wud be doing it alone, he messed me around alot through the pregnancy saying i want to be involved then no i dont want to be involved. I always forgave him and gave him another chance to be there throughout the pregnancy and each and every time he let me down with excuses.
Baby is here now and he wants to try and make amends but thinks my way is a joke, he was aggressive towards me wen i was 9mths and never showed support.
He has tried all the ways to get me to agree to access giving me a guilt trip that ive caused this situation and lied to him(which i havent), giving me altermatums if i dont answer in 5 minutes etc..., then saying that im a f*"@ing joke and i can go f@*k myself, also he told me wen i was due he would fuck me off and cant be bothered with us. i have said contact has to be in a contact centre and i want drugs test to prove hes not been smoking drugs before seeing him, he has said he is not willng to do this, i now feel guilty, have i done the right thing? He once told me he drives after having smoked drugs with his other son in the car, and he smokes it at home whilst other child is there, i just want my son safe. Opinions please ladies!
I feel really guilty and bad about the situation, feel like this is my payback for not terminating the baby.