I so don't want to do this anymore

[MrsMorgan]

I am so so so tired of it all.

Short post, you sound very sad...

me too mrs m,me too.

Not much to say but - just remember, this too shall pass ... try to do something nice for yourself, even if it's just a glass of wine/a hot bath and a (large) bar of chocolate.

me 3, but for tonight i'm going to curl up in bed with my little boy n hope the tears don't come.

it's for the kids remember.

I am not sure I am doing anywhere near the best for the kids though at the moment tbh.

Have shouted at them lots because they just wouldn't stop bloody whinging and I am so sick of hearing it.

I try so hard to do my best and it all gets shoved back in my face. There is just no point.

awww mrs m.

((hugs)) we all have our bad days when we're shouty, hug them in tight tomorrow and do something fun like cooking or colouring. just for half hour at least.

ou being there and loving them right now is enough. our job is hard enough without us thinking we're bad at it ourselves.

It doesn't seem to be enough for them though, ever.

The constant crap and lonliness feels like it is suffocating me.

I am not even sure why I am posting. Nothing ever changes no matter what I do.

oh god, mrs m, there's barely a day when I don't go to bed wishing I hadn't shouted quite so much - but I know that my twins know I love them to bits - sometimes it's bloody hard and there's days when I'm sure we all wish things were different but then there are days when it, just all goes really well and everyone goes to bed with a smile ... and we live for that - and the laughter and support of friends both in RL and here .... keep your chin up and your chest out - and if you can't manage that all the time, then come and vent here and have a cry if you need to.

i can sympathise...i have 5,2 eldest are teens,but things were bad enough today for one of them to follow me around helping,putting kettle on,sorting little ones out etc.....she recognised i'd had enough

discovered ds age 7 had run up a bill on xbox live....£51 which was left in the account for dd's passport...will take me ages to save it again,and she goes in 6 weeks

a problem halved thou, n all that jazz.

how old are dc's? do you get any rest from them?

They are 12,10 and 7 and yeh to be honest I get more of a break than some single parents. I just don't feel like I am coping at all at the moment.

Xp is a tosser, contributes nothing, but does have the dc overnight on a friday and for dinner on a wed. He does nothing with them though and they moan about going there yet seem to think he is the dogs bollocks.

I get all the crap, which I know goes with being a single mum but I just feel like there is never gonna be an end to it.

I cry way too much at the moment too, am like a bloody tap.

Got to go to bed coz I'm knackered - but how long's it been since you split - don't be too hard on yourself - any relationship breakdown is like a bereavement and the pain takes time to lessen.

Also if you're really finding it hard to cope/keep crying, get to your GP and maybe ask for counselling or ADs. Remember to try and look after yourself as well as the kids ...

Take care, things WILL get better.

Thank's kdk, i might go to bed too.

It has been 4 years, i should know how to cope by now shouldn't i really.

Thank's for the posts last night, it was nice to know someone was listening.

Not really feeling much better today tbh, infact I feel a bit odd, shakey and like I am on auto pilot.

Kids are back at school tomorrow, so I am going to see hwo the week goes and if I don't feel any better I am going to see my gp.

Sorry you're not feeling better today but your last message sounds like a plan to me.

Maybe you're coming down with something - try a hot bath/warm toddy once the kids are in bed ... usually works for me especially when combined with copious amounts of chocolate!

Just wanted to say hang in there, see what tomorrow brings. You sound like you need a break from it all! Don´t feel bad, we all loose our patience trying to be superwoman.
Take care and take it easy on yourself

Hope you're feeling better , Mrs M - I hope it gives you some comfort to know that the people replying on here are in the same boat.

Don't be afraid to see your GP if you feel very low. My DS's school doctor (DS no.1 is autistic and never sleeps!) insisted I go see mine. I'm so glad I did. Was given ADs which I took for a couple of months to get me through a very tough patch with sleep deprivation and divorce, etc. No shame in it at all - mild depression can become more serious if left unchecked.

Wish you lots of happier times x

Thanks all

Feeling very drained and stressed today, but hopeful that next week will be better.

hi mrsM

just thought i'd add a bit of a ramble as i raised three kids myself and know all too well how drained you can get - the summer hols were the worst tho. i loved having the kids at home and spending time with them but it got so knackering after a while - being on hand to do everything they asked every day just wore me out.

my lot are grown now so can fend for themselves which gives me loads more time to be me again - not just dad, cook, cleaner, taxi etc.

sure things'll improve when theyre back at school next week and you can have time to yourself. and it gets better as they get older and can do more to help out - tho expect youve noticed that anyway after the last few years - ive two dd's who were never too impressed with my cooking so became really good at it, they use recipes! just what's wrong with tescos?

knew this would ramble - anyway, take heart mrsM - i'm a bloke whose raised kids alone, so if i can do it anyone can, which i know - you are - but it does get loads better - just get the kids back to school and kick back for a while, plan for the spring. february is always the lowest time of year in lots of ways, but the sun will come back!

until then, well done so far, kids rarely show how grateful they are for the things you do but take it from me - what you see as them taking you for granted, they see as being able to depend on you - and its only years later that they realise what you did and how grateful they are for it. then you know it was all worth it

What a lovely post James T, and the last paragraph is so true.

I hope you are OK today MrsM. Hopefully now the children are back at school you will be getting a well earned rest and some ME time.

Thank's JTK

I think at the back of my mind I do know that my kids do appreciate me really, they just don't show it much, as kids don't lol.

Unfortunatly today has gone from bad to worse as I have just been told I have a groin abscess (attractive eh lol). Fingers are tightly crossed that the antibiotics I have been given will get rid of it. Otherwise I have to go in to have it cut and drained.

Sympathies, Mrs M, it is relentless and exhausting, I do know exactly how you feel, we just have to keep on keeping on somehow xxx

My ex abused me and was not supposed to get any custody by law but I have to send my son to him over the holidays. It took years to settle it all. I left America and tried to settle in the UK. It was okay for awhile. But my partner here left to Spain and now I'm struggling big time on my own, getting nothing but nasty people talking about how they're not only sick of immigrants, but single parents 'taking all the housing' etc. Never mind that it was Thatcher privatising everything that created the problem.
I have no money, no child care, and have no resources.
I work two part time jobs, and am being bullied by one of the directors at one job.
I have been approached sexually by the owner of the 'room' that I rent at the moment with my son.
I never go out, nor get any privacy.
I have done my best to find suitable accommodation, but it's just too expensive, or they say no kids, no benefits.
I am finding that this is one of the most child/mother unfriendly towns I've ever been in my life.

oh emmy thats awful!!

roughly where are you?
there are better things out there.