dont trust the father and he hasnt proven to not be interested, should i allow access?

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im due in 2wks and the father has not been there for me at all, ive had alot of complications and yet he has still disappeared when i needed him the most but he cant seem to leave me alone and back off.

He got very aggressive the other night and told me to go fuck myself, he smokes alot of weed and doesnt remember wot he says half the time, he ahs no respect for me and i have given him an unbelievable amount of chances.

Im concerned now as my lil one will be here soon and whether i should give him the chance to be a dad, i dnt trust him, im scared of him and he has shown no interest in this baby with support, what do i do?

right first things first, do not feel bad for this situation, i was made to feel i was the bad one for keeping this baby, keep all emails, texts, phone records from phone organiser, keep a diary of conversations and any details, they will all help in the future if it gets funky later on.

You must do what YOU think is best for you and little one, trust me when i say all this, i am two weeks into being a mum and nothing could of helped whilst i was pregnant, you just have to hope n trust someday it will be better and when u hold your little one for the first time believe me it was all worth it but i still worry as you have read my thread you know my situation.

Try and move away from the situation by changing your number, email, get support and stay with someone for a while for respite care, get strong for you n little one, theres no better feeling than feeling good bout yourself, remember revenge is a dish served best cold! I love the idea that one day i will see my ex again and i will look n feel fab and be a strong mum and that will be my revenge that i dont need him and im doing great with my baby.

I cant reassure you as no-one could for me and still cant but i had to believe that for every shit day 6 great ones came along and the day my waters broke was the start of my new chapter, i have since then mellowed and am doing things legally so its correct and i dont live with a big cloud over me aka the ex! please trust that it will get better but may get worse before then, im a better person for it though!! im still going through it and i completely hope that something i have said helps you even if its a little bit. x