Right, here we go. Gulp.

[LovinSealcracker]

I am bloody freezing cold. I have had three glasses of wine. I have no idea what to make ds for his tea. I bought a new britax car seat yesterday and it cost 130 quid. (last one was a tenner from NCT sale and was crap)

I want to go out but I have nobody who can babysit.

Want an indian takeaway but cant afford one. No way.

Want to have a long hot bath but have to get ds up.

Ex bastard h ...well, that's enough of him

I dont cope well on my own and yet actually cope bloody amazingly. H ran away a year and a half ago.
The xmas tree is up. ds (2yrs) has a thomas tank engine chocolate-giving advent calendar. Yes, bad sweet message but he is in heaven.

I went to asda today and bought Roses chocs for 2 pounds as presents. Bad. Not like the old days.....ha ha

I hate saying 'I' as nothing has been about 'I' since ex bastard h farked off and I still feel selfish bitch for thinking about myself.

I have made a pork curry for my tea.

But I have the marathon to climb until then. Washing, hanging out, get ds up, play, tea (???pasta??,) more play,
chuggington,
bob builder,
waybuloo,
Mister Maker,
'Iam a Shape...I AM A TRI-ANG-GUL'

I am 45 ffs.

I dont have shitty ex-p giving me the weebles but I am perfectly able to do that to myself.

No help. No support. No Family. No cashews. No bleedin idea really.

thank goodness for cbeebies that's what i say!

still works for my oldest (he has autism and learning difficulties)

you doing just fine - had many of those days, feel like no one else around...

but there will be better days, people to meet (other parents at nursery/toddler classes?)

who wants a friday night out anyway in december? heap up the duvets and get a hot water bottle.

and i havent got the tree up yet so you well ahead...

Reality, I bloody LOVE you.

I have posted the same thing in relationships...the parallel universe, or 'Other House' as I call it.

I am straddling both at the moment...it must be a phase...can't bear to leave Relationships as that just shows I am over it (18 months for fs I am a weak twanker)

and when I am fully paid-up member of Lone Parents might I think I should become un-lone?

I am an old lady but since I was 12 have only spent 4 years without a bloooooooke.

am a SF

I feel for you and remember the desperation & frustration of it all. BUT...it does get easier and better...with time. And for the sake of your ds you do have to think about yourself. When I was feeling crap I used to treat myself to clean sheets, a bubbly bath & an early night & a copy of cosmo.

but I am 95

saga magazine for all the pretty pictures

bleurgh insomnia

bad hiccups

wanky title (slaps self}

its lonely on this shelf
hiccup

talking to myself now.