will I ever get over him, cos this feeling is shite, and sad.

[IDidntRaiseAThief]

hiya, am a pirate feline in another incarnation.

I swear I don't know how to live with this feeling that he really was my only true love. And he was, and I was his. Anyone who knew us thought the same. It's this deep sadnees I cannot shift. Am not depressed, the pills take care of that! I function, I am happy in so many ways. I just miss him. He is married again, and I have recently found out what they did, what they said to one another ontheir day. It's killing me, I didn't think I would mind, but I do. It's like I want to shout 'FAKER', it feels like nothing makes sense.

I hope I am not losing the plot quietly, inside. I try to deal with my feelings, but I can't fix the fact he has gone. I feel so extremely sad.

As tho, even if i met someone else one day,no man, not even tho most perfect on paper person could make me feel better.

It makes me want tpput huge amount of pysical mileage between us, and start again somehwere else. I would really appreciate any replies, even tho this subject is hard to answer too. x

Yes they do have a terrible lack of confidence - all covered up with showmanship. They know inside that they are shells of humans - not real, faking. They are afraid they will be found out. They lie to make themselves seem better or more interesting than the nothings they really are.

Mine had tried every form of religion including buddhism. In the end he even converted to catholicism - because I am catholic. He went through the whole instruction thing with my priest, then was baptised at church and not long afterwards said he was having difficulty believing in god. He never went to mass again. Nor did I and I still don't. So he even stole my religion fro me, as well as money, my marriage and my child's chance at having a father. He didn't give a toss. It was all for show -vthe respectable married catholic teacher and father. Balderdash. He is having sex with children where he is. He has lied to get his job. He is a sad, mad and dangerous individual.

They are always outcasts. They do harbour tremendous hate - it is envy. They are envious and paranoid people.

Poor you. Keep thinking about it though...he was most certainly not the love of your life. He might have pretended to be but what you ere in love with wasn't the person you thought he was. He tricked you. You now have your freedom and your honesty back. Don't give him your time or energy now, because he will squander them both and he is not worth a nano second of your emotions. Move on. The day will come when you hear that his marriage has imploded with this next victim and he has run away again.

hugs