I hate being a single parent today

[fairyfly]

in one of those moods, im sick of it, it stinks, my life stinks, my kids stink, my house stinks, i just want a normal life with a husband looking out for us

Thanks for listening, i am now going to stick my head in a bowl of self pity and gin. I will then wake up tomorrow and be thankful, gracious and optimistic.

Ff, your plan for tomorrow sounds good. I do know that feeling of it just being YOU at the end of every day: it can be very hard being the sole grown up in charge of everyone and everything. I reckon you'll feel better if you do sort the house out and give yourself something to look forward to tomorrow, like a glass of wine in front of Desperate Housewives. There are a lot of terrible relationships on mumsnet, better to be alone than in one of them I reckon. Sorry, that's probably not very consoling! Lots of virtual sympathy anyway.

lol fairyfly

I know! I had to do it a month ago too as I am the 'responsible' sister! Yeah dad, but I already have my own little madam I am responsible for!

Caligua - wine and bubble bath! I totally agree... hmmmm, think I have a bottle in the fridge actually...

It's exactly that, being in charge of everything, i just want to bail out for a few days.
I really didn't want to do the routine today. I feel like ive had the bad relationship, now the time alone, would quite like something else.
Anyway f@@k it sitting here complaining isn't going to change anything is it. I will window shop tomorrow, dye my hair,shave my legs, pluck my eyebrows, polish, throw out some junk, dust myself off, maybe even do some painting, make a few plans for seeing people and not let myself go down this path. I am giving myself one evening and one evening only to wallow. Just call me eeyore.

What gets me at times is all the organising... you can't do anything (without children) on the off chance and as none of my friends have kids they can do whatever they want whenever they want!

I know that that is a huge generalisation and they have their own responsibilities but not a little person reliant on them 24/7! Not that I am complaining !

It sounds like you have everything well in hand though! There is no harm in wallowing now and again, especially when I am sure you have every right too!

I hope you don't mind me saying this but you sound like you feel like the lift in Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy - "have a nice day . . .". You are allowed to be tired, bored and fed up every now and again, indulge it a little and then dust yourself off and enjoy those treats.

Personally I model myself on Marvin. xxxx (and I STILL say you are much loved)

Thanks libb, beetroot is a witch she wont indulge me, people like her that make my life the misery it is

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Yes i quite like being on my own too. I am just having one of those days where i resent having no money etc. I do enjoy it most of the time as i have explained. I am just tired. It is definetly not a man issue, it is a sharing the responsibility of my children issue and the fact i will probably always deeply miss that luxury i once had.

My boyfriend is an entirely different aspect of my life who at the moment in time is doing nothing to enrich it but has decided to prepare me for when my children hit adolescence.

Oh FF I shouldn't say it, but I've just lol at your resigned description of your boyf. You are jolly funny. Even when you're depressed you cheer everyone else up!

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Cheers Caligula and rickman, funnily enough my x just rang, i had to put the phone down as im not in the mood for his crap. I'm sure you will rickman, liking him though is a completely different matter.

Oh no! At description of boyf preparing you for stroppy teenagers, that's so not what you need.

I know www, i'm pretty dissapointed. More patience needed.

patience just went and the words slipped out of my mouth.......... i don't want to go out with you anymore.............Im more upset than i thought i'd be but it has turned into more hard work than fun. I feel right back at the bottom of the ladder of shite. Won't last long though i am sure.

Are you okay toots? msn me if you like . . .