I met this guy online,not a dating site,but on a social networking site.
We mesaged eachother for weeks as friends,then we ended up txting eachother up to 30 times a day(!),before sepaking to eachother every eve.
We seemed to get on like a house on fire,and he was also absolutely gorgeous!
After 2 months of talking,we had spoken of everything,from our childhood,up to present time,and however strange it sounds,we both felt like we were falling for eachother.
Now,here comes the insane bit....
He's only in the UK twice a month(he works abroad for a UK company),and as he's hardly ever here,we decided to meet up and spend the weekend together!(in hindsight,crazy!!!I do know that)
But when you speak to someone as often as I spoke to him,you get lulled into this false sense of security,and it feels as though you actually know eachother!
He turned up,and brought the biggest bunch or roses I'd ever seen,and a bag full of presents.I have always gone for the sk bad boys before,and was really touched,what a guy!
However,we had built that wknd up soo much,wanting it to be perfect,but the day he came,so did did my period,and I felt really ill(had to take some strong medication to stop the flow even,too much info here,but was on a new pill that I didn't agree with,and it turned my body crazy!The side effects were just as bad,felt like I had food poisoning!)
Needless to say,you could tell that he wasn't too pleased,he had probably hope for a wknd of mad sex,and he'd made plans for us to go out to the theatre etc etc,but,I was sick as a dog!
Then were the little things,like he spent ages on his laptop,booking his summer holiday,checking out his profile on the site we met repeatedly etc etc.
He was pretty cuddly and all that,but the real spark wasn't there(when he kissed me I got annoyed,as he couldn't kiss,I dk what he was doing,but it was unlike anything I;d ever experienced!)
Then we ordered food in,and he was determined to refuse it as it was 5 mins late,and had a go at the poor delivery guy(I've got an oven,we could always heat it up if it's not piping hot!lol)
Anyway,when we did venture out on the last day,he did hold my hand,and was pretty affectionate.But the seeds of doubt were already there.
He had previously said that he hoped I was the woman who'd sweep him off his feet(no pressure there!),and that he felt more for me than he'd felt for anyone in a long time,that was before we'd even met!
He sent a few txt's since he went back home,but the tone of them has changed.Today he sent a pretty lovey dovey one though,and I just don't know what I want!!!
There is no such thing as the perfect
partner,and I am not sure whether I should give it more time,to see if it does develop into something,I do despite everything care for him alot as a person.He's got good values.good morals,a good job(unlike my previous men who were much younger than me,and expected me to fork out for everything!This man is on an equal salary to mine),and a bonus is that it would be a longdistance relationship(great for me as I work ft and have a very busy life,as well as my child to care for)
I do know that if I expect the perfect man to come along,then I may as well join a
blooming convent now!lol
But I am confused,am I wanting things to work too much?I know you cannot force yourself to feel something you don't,but I feel that in time,maybe I could fall for him.
With previous bf's there was always an instant,amazing chemistry,but those relationships always burn out fast too!
Sorry for rambling on soo much,but I am soo confused,and I need to tell him this eve how I feel(ouch!).
Any advice is appreciated!)))