Feeling lonely, missing ex

[ChasingSquirrels]

Arrrggghhhh, sometimes it just hits me like a body blow.
I know I have to move on, I am moving on (although not very quickly), but he was my best friend (well obviously not but he had been for a long time) and I miss so much about him.
Think I am going to be sobbing in bed tonight

so sorry for you
feel free to let it out if it helps

Big unmumsnettly hug xx

thanks, just shit sometimes, not like he is an arsehole (other than for leaving obviously) so not really anything to rant about him and get angry.
hmmmmmmm, and breath

is this your exh?
do you feel like this all the time or do certain things bring it all back?

ex-H, 17yr relationship, 2 young children. Well not actually divorced yet, but amounts to the same thing.
He left last Mar, no longer feel like this all the time, got past that after a couple of months, just things - mostly random - that take my breath away. Mostly when I am menstral, ho hum.
It is just hard coming to terms with the fact that I have effectively lost a member of my family, through their choice.
Nearly everything that happens, I would have talked to him about, now that has gone.
I should go to bed, am ironing, will just finish the last few things.

oh the pmt thing is bad at the best of times
do you have any close girlfriends to talk things over with

You ok? Big hug. x

am off to bed
hope you manage to get some sleep
will check up on you in the morning
xx

how are you doing this morning?
am about if you need to chat xx

oh, thank you for posting, how lovely.
Have been at work, then doing things with my boys.
Feeling better today, just one of those moments.
Yes, a couple of really close friends who will (and have) listen to me micro-analyse for ages.
Just sometimes you need to let it out don't you.
Thanks all for posting on the thread.

Glad you are feeling better. It is sh*t isn't it sometimes x

glad to hear that you've had better day
and hey you're allowed moments
and can always let it out on here
xx

just saw your thread chasingsquirrels. I feel for you, as have gone thru the same. It does hit like a blow. Do youwonder soemtimes how you get thru the days? It's nearly for yrs forme, and sometimes i can't understand how I have achieved even the simplest of tasks. Yet that inner strength kicks in to counter the hurt.

x

thanks pc.
So this year I move on, last year was wiped out by it happening.
In realilty it will probably take me more than this year to move on, it took 17 yrs to get to where we were, which was all my adult life.
But I now feel like maybe I don't want to hide in a hole any more.
I would rather be with him, I still love him, he was my family and I can't just turn that off.
But I hate what he has done.
And I can't be with him, not my choice, nothing I can do about it, so all I can do is make something of what I now have - which in reality is still an awful lot.
And I no longer cry my heart out when they boys go to him, which I couldn't imagine when they first started going.

blond - are you under a new name?

evening
no im still blonde
im so pleased to hear that you're feeling more positive today
and you're allowed to take all the time you need
so glad to hear that you have good RL friends to let you talk and go thru all the bits with
my RL friends are fab i couldn't be where i am without their support and love for me and the dcs
my divorce experience is different from yours
but i still experienced this period of mourning
and yes spent best part of my adult life with exh
it is an adjusting period
don't be too hard on yourself xx

just wondered if you used to be someone else, seen you around alot recently, but don't remember the name from further back.
Anyway - really appreciate your posts, thanks.

you're most welcome
always willing to help if i can