Have felt so lonely this week that for a second I wanted xp back

[IllegallyBrunette]

I never would as have come way too far, but the thought was there even if only for a very short time.

My sympathies. It may be the approaching Christmas season. I'm sure that if you don't think about it too much the thought will fade soon.

I think christmas does have alot to do with it yes.

I just hate it, I feel like such a nobody.

Awww it's normal. I feel like that sometimes too. It helps me to read my old thread on here, that's why I won't have them deleted even though it gives so much away.

Big hugs to you. YOU ARE NOT A NOBODY.

Well you are not, so I know is terribly cold but I think it would be a good idea to get out of the house even for window shopping to feel a bit better... that is what I plan to do today.

I'm dreading Christmas, or the period afterwards. Exh is taking DS abroad for 2 weeks from the 26th, and if there is a bad time to be in this town (in company or not) that is that 2 weeks. I'm praying for a family to adopt me as I can not bear the loneliness of being on my own at this time of the year.

I have a driving lesson in a couple of hours.

My dad just gets better. Have just had a letter from a baliffs company for removal of goods for unpaid council tax.
I get council tax benefits so I had no idea what it is for. Rang them and they reckon that it is for unpaid council tax from 1st April 05 - 1st Feb 06.

As far as I know it has been paid, and the council have never written to me before saying this amount was outstanding.

day not dad

NO NO NO speak to the council first, do not engage with bailiffs without first ensuring they are genuine.

Talk to the council on Monday. This comany sound fake ass.

Have already rung them as I didn't understand what it was for. They reckon they have sent me 3 previous letters, but I swear on my kids lives I have never had any other letters from them.

They said they cannot do anything and I have to dispute it with the council.

I don't get it. I can't believe tihs is happening again.

Sorry to hear that

How are you feeling now? I feel a bit unsympathetic to ask but I want to know that you are Ok.

I get that. I am glad to be away, etc, etc, but I still think sometimes that some things would be better if...

Morning all

Am feeling a little bit better, just a bit worn down and fed up I think.

I just can't seem to deal with this feeling lonely stuff, it is like it is suffocating me. It's the last thing I think about when I go to sleep and the first thing I think about when I wake up.

You don't live that far from me IB if you fancy meeting up sometime or chatting on msn? I used to be on my own and I totally understand the loneliness I used to go back to my abusive ex just so I wouldn't be alone so you are a lot stronger than I was!

You will get through this and your life will move on, remember - it's just a phase, won't be like this forever, that which doesn't kill you makes you stronger.....

You should be proud you've come this far

Council Tax can be sorted if you arrange to pay them back little by little, I've done this before in the past. Thats if you do actually owe it.

I didn't realise you were in the midlands Lovemygirls.

My addy for msn is [email protected]

I am proud of how far I have got on my own, but the truth is that i'd give all that up in a flash to not be alone.

i get those lonely days too now and then - still dont find being single to be normal and arent really happy with it.

and have, once or twice since being a sp, thought i'd trade everything to be with someone. but its getting this far whether single or not that makes you who you are. so dont despair - there are plenty of fellas who'd go the extra mile for you - you just have to meet one, which is inevitable really.

oh, and as for wanting ex back, even for a second, well dont we all - just for a second.

Hey IB I'm also from near you so if you're ever in need of someone in RL i'm sure I could help. I get really lonely too sometimes.