I have heard a little about you this week but I have not read any threads relating to it.
As you know in the last two years I have lost my DP, my sister and my Mum. My Dp and sister took their own lives.
Last week was my Gran's funeral, my only living Grandparent when I was born.
Anyway, I know I can't say anything that will make you feel better, but no matter what you think the fact is that your children need you more than anything in the World and it will be devastating for them if anything happened to you. It would affect them for the rest of their lives. Not to mention your remaining family and friends.
I know how it feels to want to die, to feel everything is pointless so why go on, but no matter how low it gets I never loose sight of the fact that my children need me more than anything in the World and it is the same for your children they need you.
Please keep one thought in your mind - you are their Mother, a good Mother who loves her children and they need you so much, to loose you would damage them forever.
Imagine your children suddenly having no Mother, the pain they would be in now and in the future, all the unanswered questions they would have to live with.
Imagine your ex rasing them or maybe he wouldn't, what would happen to them?
I am thinking of you and yes I would like to go for a few drinks with you, when are you available?