I have the opportunity to go for a second interview with a v v well paid job where I will be running a department on my own. - being out of the game for 2 years it is fantastic to be able to go back in at roughly the same level I left, but better paid. here's the thing. this job they want me to do approx 20 hours p.w at approx £14 p.h (which is why it's fantastic!) on the other hand however from prev exp, this level of responsibility comes with stress.
I know i'd enjoy the challenge but do I really want the additional stress? I'm currently also doing 2 OU courses which requires roughly 16 hours work a week. - this is with the view to when DS is in full time school (ie sept 10 I think) me going to portsmouth uni to do a maths degree - this has alwasy been my intention as I want to teach 11-16 year olds eventually.
The thing is I'm currently borderline for PND. I feel guilty about 'pushing DS out as well'
I'd be looking at doing 2.5 days a week - prob a tues, thurs & fri am. DS would be in nursery/pre school from 9am - 4pm on those 2 days (when my parents would collect him & have him with them for an hour when I got him - on a friday it would be 9-1, unless I can arrange for a family member to have him)
would it also be mean of me to still go to my gym class as a 'release? I currently go 3 mornings a week for an hour a time, so DS has 4 hours in there, i'd give up 2.5 of those, but would it be mean on the weds (which tbh is the class I really love) to put him in there for an hour?
The alternative is to wait & find something in tescos or such likes & do that. and try to get evening shifts & still have DS in the nursery but for say 2 mornings only to catch up on 'missed' study when working.
money wise in my pocket i'd have about an extra £40 p.w from the better paid job. s i'm not sure, not sure at all.
(it's not possible to do my classes in the evenings as I have to study on a sun, mon, weds & fri) plus see beau on a tues, thurs & sat.
at the minute not working things are juggled well, & I have time for DS during the day so studys etc don't bother him, and he has his little bit away from me in the creche.
what to do? I want to work but which way do I go?