Lost dad, I try telling people that it is not him I can't get over, but they think because I have a new man now all is well in the world and no problems, thing is he is still a fanny regardless. lack of communication I am used to, lack of consideration is hard but normal but the bare faced lying is hard to take and leaves me harping on like a idiot instead of rising above it like I should.
In fact fell out with NM last night as I was blowing a gasket about exH yet again, I know I go on too much and he is not there for me to vent, hence I am doing it here instead. Thing is exH's arsholness affected NM's plans too, that was what I was ranting about but it must have been one rant too far.
Poppyfox you sum up my past 10 years exactly, I was mearly there to enable him to do what he wanted in life, still seems that way.
I am having the last laugh, (well never going to be the last is it there is always something,) but his lovely blonde slim young fresh looking GF now looks older than me, wider than me and is sporting a rather unflattering two tone tacky hairdo, shame considering she is 12 years younger than me at least, goodness only one year in and look what it has done to her. Nice to see she is settling into the supporting role nicely .
Trying to remember
"Small little insignificant things and people, (breath)
Big huge wide world, ( breath again)".