Feeling sorry for myself

[gillybean2]

So it's my birthay again.

Didn't remind ds this morning and he didn't rememeber. I reminded him last year because I knew he had got me a card, but he hasn't made me one this year and I was getting upset at his lack of enthusiasm for doing so whenever I mentioned it so I stopped suggesting he might like to a couple of days ago after I lost my rag when he wanted to play on his nintendo rather than make it. It's not his fault after all.

And then this morning I didn't want to be upset and make him upset so decided not to mention it. Can't afford to buy a cake for home even this year so I think it's better just to forget it.

A couple of well meaning people at work have asked me what I got for my presents and what am I doing this evening. Perhaps I should lie as it seems to make them uncomfortable when I say I didn't get any presents and I'm going food shopping to tesco's tonight to avoid bein home on my own.

One lady said she was sad for me that I got no presents and I just smiled best I could and said 'that's what it's like when you're a single parent'.

People really don't understand what it's like to have no support and do all this on your own year after year. Really grinds you down. I have to keep nipping to the loo so I don't start crying at my desk.

Hoping being able to say it 'out loud' will help me feel better. Sorry for being self indulgent. I'll feel better tomorrow

Oh Gillybean I'm sorry to read this, how sad for you. As a married Mum, it never occurred to me how lonely birthdays must be (I heavily hint to DH that the DC should make cards...)

Happy birthday from me anyway

hi gillybean2,
Happy Birthday to you
i wish you will have more nice birthdays in the coming years.
try not to worry about your son forgetting.
he should have someone to teach him what to do when its his mum's birthday. but when you're single mum there is no such person, so dont worry.
being a single mum is so hard i know that, as many people do, but being with a bad partner is more hard i think.
i had been in your situation many times so dont worry, try think about it as any other day for now.
wish you all the best.
lucy

Happy Birthday
Buy something special at Tescos tonight for you and DS, even if it does mean beans on toast till next thurdsay!!!!
And no housework. Feet up when you get in!

happy birthday gillybean, i agree with charlie cat go out and get something you realy realy want invite a friend round or something and watch dvds x

Nice ideas but I simply can't afford to spend anything extra this month.

I have no money to buy anything other than very basic food. £40 food budget to last me from now till 10th July. Over spent last month so have to really keep it under control this month. I have pasta in the cupboards, so hopefully we'll only need milk, bread and veg and will just about manage if I keep the reins very tight.

The only two friends I have aren't available. One is getting married today and the other is going to visit her sick mother in Newcastle. I'm never good company anyhow as I get upset by how little effort my parents make. I was adopted so my birthday is pretty meaningless to them. I will get a card from them at some point no doubt.

So yes, shopping is just a means to get out of the house and stop me moping, but we won't be buying very much.

Thanks for the birthday wishes though

Happy Birthday gillybean2. Can you and your son bake a cake? That would make it special. then take turns blowing the candles out. My dd loves doing that.

Have a nice bath later with some bubble bath and light some candles, put on some relaxing music.

I feel very like you and sometimes get upset on my birthday as no one sends me a card.

Take care

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ((((HUGS TO YOU))))

I know you must be having a crapolla day sweetie but you just need to make the best of it....why dont you buy a bottle of wine.....i dare you....im more than happy to join u later on pissed out of my face we'll have a mumsnet party...and if no one else shows up who gives a shit the important people matter

important people being YOU and me

Buy a cheap bottle, im sure about 2.09 or something in Tescos. Do you bank with lloyds? Ill send you a fiver. Or paypal(but thats an arse extracting it to bank your end).
On my last birthday I took a couple of 10 year olds to the cinema, and when I got back I got drunk so much I couldnt drive the next day.
Oh and the one person Id mentioned to that it was my birthday, who I normally talk to every couple of days on MSN logged on the day before, and the day after and didnt mention my b.day. I was SORE
Chin Up!

see!!!! there's 3 of us already.....we can link chessy youtube songs on and dance and drink WAHOOOO!!!!!

gillybean HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU......HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR GILLYBEAN.......HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU (in my best tuneful voice)

It's crap spending your birthday alone (although i'm not a proper lone parent having a DH in the forces makes you a part time one). Can you and your friends do a belated celebration next week? That way you just post phone the celebration! What age is your DS?

"happy birthday www.youtube.com/watch?v=HgqD826HGuI to you"

He's 9.5

My friends did suggest doing something next week, but the only day they can manage it I'm already commited to helping at cubs with a special map reading activity which I am meant to be organising. Plus they seem to think money grows on trees and don't realise that even a meal out is the same as a whole weeks weeks shopping budget for me.

I don't drink i'm afraid, mostly because I can't afford too. But will probably be on later once I pluck up enough courage to leave Tesco's and get home to be on my own and listen to all the messages there won't be on my answerphone.

Making a cake might be an option. Don't think my son would be interested in helping and the kitchen would require a massive tidying up exercise to be able to do that. Really just want to forget it by the time I get home to be honest. Doesn't it work out being the same price as buying the cheapest cake going by the time you buy all the ingredients though?

LOL, just watched the youtube clip - this is a great party gillybean, I'm so glad it's your birthday!

Thanks all.

Will haveto wait till I get home to check out the youtube links etc, should really be doing some work and not be on here even...

you can buy a chocolate sponge mix for about 36p in tescos...some chocolate spread in the middle
Clearly I was never taught how to cook properly, but it tastes good

think i might be a lush and get the cherry brandy out lol

Are you home yet?

Happy Birthday Gillybean.

from one lonely old mucker to another

hope you got yourself something nice to eat in tesco?

Happy Birthday GillyBean!

Sorry it's been a crappy day for you.. I know how hard it is to have to prompt the children to prepare 'secrets' for you.. In the long run though they do get it and start to think of it themselves. Mine have just this year got the hang of it and sorted out a 'surprise' for me, they are 10 and 11.

Warm birthday wishes for you and I hope you'll be feeling better tomorrow

Happy Birthday GillyBean.
Seen a couple of your posts recently and you do seem a bit down, so sorry to hear that .
Hope things get better for you, I spent years hating my birthday (totally different reasons) but it did get better.
xx

Happy Birthday Gillybean.

Hope the fact that you haven't posted since lunch is because:-

1. You have had a wonderful surprise and been taken out.
2. You were propositioned in the dairy aisle of Tescos, and are currently doing battle with a lean rugby player and a pot of extra thick Jersey cream.
3. You and your son are snuggled up in front of a dvd, as he has said sorry for forgetting.

Hope you feel better tomorrow.