The past few days have been truely impossible. Im massively huge with my bump and have zero energy which means that ds suffers. I cant play with him the way i would like to and bathing him has become impossible. Ds has also been ill with croup, an ear infection, a viral infection and 2 teeth are coming through so there have been several sleepless nights. Me and the ex are just constantly fighting... He says that all i ever do is critocise but i just want him to pull his weight and help. whilst ds has been ill he has expected me to give him regular txt's and updates on how he is but has only once bothered to come over and help... and when he was here he spent the whole time complaining that was in pain because of his black eye and bruises from football. His stupid barbie girlfriend wouldnt stop ringing to find out how long he was going to be which really got on my nerves as ex was there to see ds, not me. I went out and got medicine and food supplies so that i would be stocked up for a bit and therefore wouldnt need to go out. the minute i got bk from tesco ex left to get bk to his precious gf. didnt even kiss ds good bye! I know people are going to say i shouldnt expect anything more from him but i do... im just so sick of coping with ds and pregnancy alone and then trying to keep up with uni. I find it so hard to deal with his new girlfriend. he is constantly trying to get back with me, has told me she is controling and that he's not that into her so why does he put her above his son and spend more time with her daughter than our ds?
I also came to the realisation that one of the reasons I left him was becuase he was so controling... however he is still controling what i do. telling me what i can and cant do. I just feel so week and the only person i had to support me has gone travelling in africa for 4 months.
Found out to day that my mums cancer isnt as simple as we thought in the first place and that she may end up having her facial nerve removed resulting in her losing the movement on one side of her face. he radiotherapy is being moved to a new time which falls just as im about to have my baby and so she might not be able to be at the birth. I dont really have anyone else. Im so alone and depressed and i just dont know how much more i can deal with. i know people dont come on here to her sob stories but im just totally lost as to where to turn. and instead of things getting better they're just gettiing worse.