I've been trying not to think about this too much because I can really spiral when I do think about it, but I feel so sad that it's just going to be me and DS 2. Stbxh and I met later in life and I would have loved more children. On one hand I'm really thankful that I didn't have more than ds with him because I'd really struggle financially if I'd had more now I'm on my own, but at the same time I worry massively about ds being left without me if something happened to me, or feeling responsible for me and my welfare as I get older. My parents are getting older and now I'm left leaning on them again in my late 30s while I get back on my feet after my marriage breaking down, and I'm so grateful to them for all their support, but it terrifies me that I won't be able to provide for ds in this way because I'll be doing everything on just my wage and if I was ill or died then he'd be on his own. I'm sure others worry about this too- how do you manage your anxiety around this?