Left a narcissist

[Bm2015]

Hi, I have a 8 week old baby and 2 kids from previous relationship,My mom died 5 weeks ago she was my best friend. I’m devastated, while dealing with everything going on my relationship has fell apart I was engaged . Since baby was born and my mom passed away my fiance wasn’t there for me, constantly drinking and taking cocaine. I think he has a problem for sure. He’s promised me for years he would give up but hasn’t. He’s paranoid and controlling he try’s to mess with my head. It’s more emotional abuse, I can’t take anymore, he’s broke my heart when I’m already grieving. This isn’t the life I wanted. I watched the new movie ‘ it ends with us’ and realised that it has to end, he is going to make my life hell and I can’t deal with it all anymore and tonight I’ve blocked on my phone as I can’t deal with him no longer. I know this is wrong, please Tell me it gets easier.. don’t really know what I’m asking 🙁🙁 if it wasn’t for my kids I don’t know what I’d do 😭

I know it's hard, I can at least say that to you.

My ex-wife and I separated this year, I'm now on my own with 4 kids.

She was a heavy drinker and there was DV towards me also. I know it's hard. There is injunction now preventing her from having further contact with me or the children.

I know the feeling of isolation, I'm thankful that my parents are still alive, but they live in my home country. I have no family here.

We were married for 10 years, together for 11. The adjustment period is rough, but I can feel the light towards the end of the tunnel now.

You did the brave thing by taking your children away from this situation. I hope you're proud of yourself, because you should be. What you did was without the doubt the hardest decision you would ever have to make.