thats it really, I just feel extremely sad that my time is running out, and that even if I had a relationship, I wouldn't be able to have a pregnancy without severe pain. Ongoing pain at that.
Actually the pain, tho it was awful, was made worse by the fact i couldnt really walk, bend, function up until about 3 yrs after I had dd.
Its just sometimes, I feel very broody. I feel for my dd who I would love to have a sibling.
I just ache soemtimes to want to feel another life in my belly.