mary, please dont take this the wrong way..im not trying to be harsh. if he has hit you before he will hit you again. end of. if you really want to try again then please let it be the last chance you give him. your child is too young to understand anything right now but they still sense something is wrong. she wont remember anything from now...but if this was to continue for years then she would. trouble is, the more chances you give him, in my experience, the more he will treat you badly. if you are going to give it another try make sure its for the right reasons, rather than just a comfort blanket as such. i know how hard it is when you feel there is nothing else you know but make sure you dont step into wasting years with someone who you will split with anyway, further down the line, maybe when you have more children and its harder to break free. does that make any sense? if you feel you need to in order to keep posting here, change your name. dont worry too much about explaining your circumstances again, you can do it in a roundabout way. there are so many here sadly with similiar things going on im sure he cant check on all of the posts similiar to yours, and tbh..even though ive had this name for a long time i still often have to explain my circumstances. (although it is easy to be paranoid, i do it all the time) if theres anyone here that you msn or trust you can always let them know who you are anyway by other means. i know im rambling again (as i do) ive just seen this so many times (and am having to watch a friend go through it at the mo when i cant say a thing to her about it. ive seen her go from being a confident (although sad because she wanted her ex partner back so much) person to a controlled shadow of her former self. she has her partner back now and maybe she thinks she is happy..she is the only one who cant see how she's changed and she blames everyone else close to her for how her partner behaves..its not him, we just all dont understand him etc). i cant tell you if you are doing the right thing or not but whatever you decide, dont ever let it get so bad that you lose yourself xx