Can't do it

[purpleme12]

It's so hard
I'm so so sad tonight.
So tired
I have a really hard child and I feel so alone.
I know I'll wake up tomorrow and I'll have to keep putting one foot in front of the other cos that's all I've got at the minute.
I'm out of my depth.
No my child isn't a tinder toddler or baby.
And then I miss my dad because he was the one who loved me. And I'm even more sad.
I have never felt so alone

[purpleme12]

I'm so alone

[GarlicAndTangerines]

Oh god I feel you. I'm so sorry you're having such a hard time - and I understand completely where you're coming from. Do you have anyone you can ask for help? Even someone you could pay just for a few hours of peace?

[Blahblah34]

You’re not alone. Write it all down here. Tell us about your child and why it’s hard. We’ll listen, if nothing else.

[purpleme12]

Thank you she's so angry
It's not a behaviour I can stop I can't stop any of her behaviours honestly.
I love her so we keep going. It's got too much tonight

[Calmquiet]

I am so sorry. If you have no one to speak with call the Samaritans on 116 123 there will always be someone there for you ❤️

[Blahblah34]

Sounds like you’re at breaking point and need real life help. For now, write it all down. Make sure you’ve had something to eat and drink. Try to get some sleep.

Then tomorrow try to make a list of calls to make on Monday for help. Your GP for a referral to CAMHS for your daughter. Social services for support. Her school who might be able to point you to other resources

Hang in there. Sending love xxx

[purpleme12]

I just wanted to go be with dad for a bit tonight
I know I won't but I felt that bad
It's so hard
And I don't know what goes on in her head. If I did it would be so much easier. I could know why

[GarlicAndTangerines]

How old is your daughter?

[purpleme12]

She is 10 it's ok I know all the advice it's just got so on top of me tonight and it came out

[purpleme12]

I was supposed to watch a programme I haven't even managed that

[purpleme12]

Feel so isolated

[purpleme12]

Going to get no sleep

Never knew it would be this hard

[Headstarttohappiness]

Get someone you trust over tomorrow or get out of the house if you can.
It really is hard. Love to you

[RogueFemale]

@Calmquiet

I am so sorry. If you have no one to speak with call the Samaritans on 116 123 there will always be someone there for you ❤️

Hate to say it but these days the Samaritans work from a script and are taught to just mirror the caller. You may as well be speaking to an AI bot.

[Raspberrymoon49]

I know how hard it is OP, raised children with no financial, physical or emotional support and it’s exhausting just trying to keep going and never having a break physically or mentally, I truly understand

[purpleme12]

Thank you for saying you understand


It hurts sometimes

[purpleme12]

I texted my sister saying my child is hard and I don't know why

She texted back saying she's probably pushing boundaries and she'll probably settle soon

Bloody hell I think at 10 I'd know if it was something as simple as pushing boundaries
I almost want to laugh at that