Please help me

[Hayley8519]

I’ve not posted here before.

I am a single mom to 4 children, one has grew up and left home youngest is 7.

I don’t even have the strength to bore you with the miserable difficult life I am living.

I just want to describe how I am feeling. From the bottom of my core I am so so unhappy. I hate every single aspect of my life. I don’t want to be a mom anymore but I also would never leave my children. I have no interest in anything. No time because my children’s schooling is a nightmare and haven’t been going for months due to additional needs.

I sit and stare at my walls all day everyday and I honestly think I’m close to a breakdown. I don’t want to live this life for another second. I feel like I’m drowning in misery.

So sorry you are finding it so rough. I'm not surprised - 4 kids on your own must be crazy hard.

Be kind to yourself. Have you got anyone you can ask to help you / give you a break? Other mum friends?

That sounds very hard. Is there anything small you can do for yourself- cup of tea in front of a tv show/ read a magazine/ walk around the block with a podcast that would give you a short break? Being a single parent is relentless. Take any help you can get.

I hope things improve for you.

What can you do to help yourself? Have you seen doctor as you are clearly depressed -any antidepressants, any talking therapy? Any family /friends that will mind the kids a few hours so you get to do something for you? What would u like doin ie massage, read a book, go see a friend? Do you get fresh air daily?

You are not on your own, I hear you x