Hello, just a little background, I'm a single mum to my autistic 6 year old son, my sons dad have never been around since I found out I was pregnant, I live on my own with my son and work as a caregiver in the community full time, my mum and my step dad do help with my son while I'm working but sometimes it's not possible due to my hours and their work schedule, and please don't get me wrong I am grateful as without them I would not be able to afford to live.
Recently, well for about 6 months, I've really been struggling emotionally, and physically, with tiredness and trying to meet my sons needs and everyone else's needs as I work with very vulnerable/sick people, I go to work helping other people around their homes, hardly having time to stop for a break (travel times are my breaks so I eat while I drive) as i leave at 7.30am and dont get back until 9.30pm some days, (I work 6 days a week) I enjoy my job and very rewarding knocking I've made someone's day by simply driving them to get their groceries, or helping with their gardening, or making their favourite meals, and then I come home to do it all over again for me and my son, I'm exhausted.
Anyways I have these new neighbours who live above me, who are I believe taking the piss, shouting and swearing (arguing), slamming doors, stomping around all hours of the night until 4am, right outside mine and my sons bedroom windows, my other neighbour, that I said to that I didn't have work in the evening, my only early finish and she sends her kids down because they were "hassling her" after I had just drifted off to sleep with my son on the sofa while watching a movie, woke us both up.
Anyways I don't even know what I'm asking, I don't remember the last time I had or done anything for myself, I feel like I can bearly hear myself think between everything, I feel like I'm trying to make everyone happy while I'm breaking, I have no friends or the little friends i do have sponge off of me for money and other things, even though i work my ass off to provide for me and my son, I don't go out, I don't have a social life, my mum is also busy with 3 kids that still live with her, so I feel as though I'm a burden anytime I ask for help, although it's more emotional support that im needing, I'm drained, and my heart breaks that my son is now worrying about weather or not I have eaten in the day and this should not be his worry at 6 years old, but I need to work as I'm the only one that's bring in an income to pay for my rent, council tax and all my other bills on tip, plus food shopping and utilities, I also now have a back payment with my rent from earning too much, (which I was work 7 days a week before all day for 2 months as someone had crashed into my car while stationary in a layby at mine, which no car means no work, so i had to work so much to save for a new car, insurance didnt pay out for 3 months due to the women not claiming liability (she was the only driver), and 3 cars in total were involved, my car was a write off, i couldnt get a curtesy because the women didnt claim liability, so money was tight, which it is again now, which im paying for that back payment, I feel like everything has just got on top of me with no where and no one to turn to.. I'm sorry for ranting, this isn't even the half of it eitherðŸ˜ðŸ˜”