Deserve to be slated for this....but

[pinguthepenguin]

I'm going to be completely honest, because it's eating me up, and I'm fully aware of how it makes me sound, but I can't help it..........

I don't like being a mother as much as I thought I would

I find it hard
I find it isolating
I have little patience with my child
I prefer to do other things when I'm with her
I look forward to her nights with her dad

and the worst?

there are times when I even regret her

Some days I reason with myself and think that it's because she is so small (8mo), therefore not as interesting/interactive as an older child. That it'll be better when she's older etc, that I'm just not that good with babyhood - but I'm afraid I might feel this way forever.

I am not depressed, I am not without friends, I am not poor.

I am just a parent, who often wishes she wasn't one.

I think most mums feel like this at some point, I love my kids and i like them too, BUT i don't like some of the aspects of being a mum, i don't like being shouted at, demanded at, doing boring jobs such as making packups, breakfast,cleaning up spills ect ect, who does? I also LOVE getting a break from them and enjoying the company of people who don't demand things from me. I alwasy think if someone says they love EVERY minute of parenthood, they are either in the very early days, unusually unselfish, or lying!

Lying bastards