I have a 22 month old and an 8 month old and they are my absolute world. I’ve been single since May after my ex came home on cocaine and ended up getting arrested for ABH. We were together for less than three years, he was never reliable due to the cocaine, gambling and various other issues. I’ve felt like I’ve reached burnout the past few days and it all came to a head when I was out with family today. Baby hasn’t been sleeping due to teething/heat, he’s never been a good sleeper anyway and we’ve always coslept due to this. Last night he didn’t settle after his breastfed so stayed up with me. I got up at 6.30am as I had arranged to go to a car boot with my family, so got us all ready and out the door by 8am. I’m struggling with my daughter at the moment due to tantrums, she doesn’t communicate much and has been referred for speech therapy. But I recognise this is just normal toddler behaviour and tantrums are normal. I just feel like I’m failing her, she’s so unhappy from the moment she gets up, I feel like nothing I can do is enough for her anymore. She gets fed up at the car boot which is fair enough as obviously it’s not something enjoyable for her, so I say I’m taking the children back to the car. We had arranged to go to a jumble sale after this, on the way i get a bit upset and say to my parents I might go to the nearby park instead, my mum just says oh don’t stress. But I am stressed, because I know these two little people are solely my responsibility and they have different needs and there’s only one of me. I’m clearly upset, crying, etc and my mum’s comment just makes me feel belittled and just like she doesn’t want to make a scene when all the family is together, but these are my genuine emotions I can’t hide it. So anyway day goes on as planned, go to humble sale then park etc then get back to my parents and both children fall asleep in the car. Daughter wakes up at parents after sleeping for over an hour so I feel sure she will be in a better mood, but she gets up and continues to throw tantrums. Again let me stress I know this is normal, I’m not complaining about my little girl I’m just explaining the situation. So I feel deflated and say to my parents I’m going to go home. I just feel like I’m not getting any emotional support from anyone, I’m not expecting help with the children as both were/youngest still is breastfed anyway so need to be with me all the time. I just feel like I have no emotional support, I just want someone to give me a hug and say you’re doing okay you’re not a rubbish mum, we can see how hard your trying. Am I expecting too much? I left my parents upset after trying to explain that to my mum, then get home and phone my mum and she says I’m just having a go at her and puts the phone down. Call my dad and he doesn’t pick up. I actually just felt at breaking point and thought wow I’m actually completely alone, there’s no one I can even talk to. I’m not expecting help with the kids I just feel like I have no emotional support, and then the fact I need it and clearly it isn’t available just makes me feel like I’m weak and there’s something wrong with me. It’s just so isolating, I’m so exhausted, I feel like I’m failing my children because I’m so tired all the time and I’m spread so thin. I do cope quite well usually I just seem to have hit a wall, I cope well usually we go out everyday to the park and to toddler groups, soft plays, meet up with friends with kids and all those sorts of things. There’s just always so much to do. I’m feeding baby to sleep now then I need to blitz the flat, clean the kitchen, tidy toys, washing on, shower etc. I don’t know what I’m trying to achieve by posting this, maybe to ask am I being unreasonable to want emotional support.