Did you ever want to leave everyone and start over fresh?

[Justhereandthere]

I'm in a tricky relationship with my husband of 14 years. (Got married at 17 and wasn't by choice). We have 3 children (10m 5f(twins) )

Things aren't looking good and we just can't get along. I cant break up with him I won't cope alone with the twins. For now he helps clean the house he takes the children to school while I work as a teacher.

Iv been really down and depressed and there really isn't a way out ( I have thought of all the possibilities) I'm now tempted to leave my husband and children and start fresh. Move out of London start a new job and restart my life. I know its selfish but I can't live like this. I know it makes me a horrible mum but I have been happy for years. I just want to be free. Am I a monster? And has anyone ever actually left and started their life again?

That sounds really hard, does your husband work or are you the sole breadwinner? Could you pay for counseling in real life to talk through the issues and options. and are you getting everything you need for treatment around depression, checking for thyroid, vitamin deficiencies, anaemia etc to rule those out as a factor.

I have known 4 women who have left but I think all stayed in touch and close by apart from one and all had solid ex-partners. It's a desperate move and could cause much irreparable hurt to your family and you. You're not a monster if you're broken down by family but you may end up alone and with nothing resembling a life you want.

Yes often but my ex would never have had the kids so wasn’t an option