So lonely

[purpleme12]

I don't know how lonely it would get as a mum.
I have a challenging child sometimes. Who needs me to calm her down. But she's lovely as well.
My ex said you two argue loads it's madness.
He knows nothing about here because he stopped talking to me and made it clear he didn't want to talk to me ages ago.
Im so tired of keeping going because I have to.
If I'm honest it hurts that he thinks we argue lots.
Maybe he's right maybe I'm a shit mum.
No one sees the lovely moments. No one sees what I do to make everything good for her.
I'm worried I'll lose her when she's older. She already doesn't like me asserting boundaries/consequences sometimes. I can see her going complaining to daddy about me and he won't enforce what I'm doing/back me up in any way so she'll probably want to go live there.
It's so lonely. No one sees the good moments.
Sometimes I really don't know if it's worth me being here.
I'm unsure if she behaves better there cos he's a novelty cos she doesn't live there.

I hear you about the lonely moments,
how fucking bloody lonely it gets!
Hugs and love to you,

I also hear you about all the hard work you put in,
I hear about how much you love your child, put her first
and what a strong and solid mum you are.

I hear you you when you talk of your struggles and
that you environment and the people around you aren't helping,

I hear you and send love and hugs,
and a reminder that
this also will pass...
is a phase.

You're a very strong woman
with a lot to give
In particular to this wonderful child of yours
and the world at large.

What are the particular strengths of yours that need honing,
polishing and refining to make you shine even more in the world
and for your child and the future of the planet?

Welcome to the circle - here's my hand :)

I’m sure you are a good Mum. Why not have some of your photos printed from all the happy fun every day things you do together and put them into one of those photo pocket displays that hang on a door.

If you are feeling down or worried especially when she is at her Dad’s you will be able to look at them.
Being a parent is about the good times and the bad. You need to give her rules and boundaries so can’t expect to be “ best friends “ all the time.
Children do respond well to this so try not to worry about the future too much. Make time for yourself when you can.

Making me cry 😭😢

It's true I just so bad want someone to hear.
To understand

Thank you.

Photos might be good actually. I don't have any out.
Just got to find a way to get them