Being good cop, bad cop and everything in between is harder than I ever imagined

[Ynotme]

I'm a lone parent to a 5yr old. Dad not local and sees child once during school holidays for an overnight.
For the most part DC is amazing. Well mannered, brilliant company.
But every so often, their behaviour goes off the scale.
I hate parenting this. I hate yelling. I hate being triggered by poor behaviour.
I wish I had someone who I could just share the discipline load with.
I feel so sad today after an issue with extreme bad behaviour yesterday.
I suspect ADHD. But with no diagnosis I can't access support.
I shouted and shamed my child.
Today I hate being a solo parent.

No real reason for this post other than wanting to write it down and hoping I'm not alone in feeling this way.

It's so lonely isnt it.

Parenting, I don't care what anyone says, is the hardest job in the world.
Ok maybe US President - but they only do max 8 years!

You sound like you're bossing it. Anyone who gets through the whole of parenting alone without the occasional meltdown (on both sides) is just a robot. You're human and your DC is too. Go easy on yourself OP.