Hi. I’m a single mum I have my daughter with me this Christmas we stayed at my parents house overnight with my sister and her boyfriend too. I’m feeling really low and depressed. Everyone seemed in a weird mood too just not very happy. Not sure why. My 2 year old is hyper on the move constantly she’s brilliant and fun but does have tantrums I know that’s normal. But I feel this odd detachment from everything like I don’t exist anymore like everyone sees through me and doesn’t care about me it’s all about my daughter we all just stare at her the whole time and keep her happy. I was opening presents and no one was watching even when I said thank you no one heard me and I started feeling like I was dead non existent even when they were coming in and out the room no one talked to me. It was really weird.. like I’m just watching and I’m not alive and now I’m starting to believe it that I’m not actually alive. And I feel they didn’t appreciate the presents I got them either. It all felt exhausting and I cried. My mum is annoying too she’s like a helicopter gran and takes over and I don’t have any say. She cuts up my toddlers food so small :/ and when she cries she gives me horrible looks or rushes in the room and takes over acting like I’m some sort of villain. They don’t like when I show real emotions and they look down on me when I struggle with toddler. It’s so toxic and I miss my ex boyfriends family they have shunned me out since he broke up with me too so I feel to be honest suicidal like everyone would be happier without me