A year ago my H left. We spent a few months will we/won’t we resolve it but ultimately the marriage is over. But I am unable to accept it, I’m still holding out hope even though deep down I deserve better. But my mind is taking me to happy memories only and I don’t believe I will be happier single. Now my life is just existing with no happiness.
I still love H, we are on good terms (ish) but I can’t bare the thought of being a single parent to 3 primary school DC and living such a lonely life. He is only seeing the kids once every 3-4 weeks for a couple of hours (another story). I just want my old life back where I was happy, married with a 2 parent family but it’s not possible and is consuming all my emotions and taking a serious toll on my mental well-being. How can I accept it? How do I move on?
Any tips welcome.