This might not be in the right topic but here goes - I’m so physically and mentally tired that I don’t know how to get back to feeling normal, I keep catching every bug going and a lot of the time feel like I might cry.
Split with ex at the start of 2020, since then he’s had both dc’s (6yo and 12yo) eow and 1 night a week, but does zero mental\physical load for dc to the point I have to provide a bag for them with their school uniform etc as he either forgets it or loses stuff and refuses to buy anything.
If there’s something going on at school on his time I have to remind him about it and provide stuff for it, he gets the same info I do but when I’ve tried not doing this then dc miss out. So as well as doing everything on my time I have to sort stuff for his time as well, I also work in a full time fairly high pressured job. If I raise any of this with him then he shouts, sulks etc. and says he pays cms and will have them 50/50 if it’s too much for me - both dc are clear they don’t want this as he shouts/sulks with them as well.
I'm trying to get better at sleeping, taking vitamins etc. but can’t catch up on sleep when they’re not here as the house is a doer upper and so I’m doing that as well. Has anyone got any tips, tricks or ideas on how I can improve this? DS12 already does sort quite a lot of his own stuff so don’t want him to do more, my family are 100+ miles away so can’t help, so it’s just me and it’s all just grinding me down.