I’m not really sure what the point of this thread is, maybe just a rant and see if anyone is in the same position/ideas to make it feel a bit easier?
I have 2 children under 4. I split with their dad last year after him cheating for years and me finally having enough. He’s a good dad and pulls his weight with the childcare.
I just feel like every single day I’m losing my actual shit with them. The eldest doesn’t do anything I ask her to, she shrieks and shouts almost constantly, and it’s like she can tell when I’m struggling so she plays up more.
The youngest is at the typical ‘no’ stage and screams when I give her a plate she doesn’t like at dinner time, and refuses to sleep in her own cot and will only settle with me.
Don’t get me wrong, I know their parents have split and they’re wondering what’s going on and I am very sympathetic to that. I really try to be patient and keep things as calm as possible.
But some days I feel like I’m going to have a breakdown. I feel guilty for leaving the relationship. Although I know it’s the right thing to do and I genuinely don’t miss him as a partner, I don’t want to be a single mum and I’m worried the kids are suffering because of it.
I also want some me time, time for a new relationship, time to get drunk with my friends and forget about being a mum. And there just aren’t enough hours in the day.
Basically today I’m just fed up of being a mum 🤷🏻♀️
Rant over ✌🏻