OMG PANIC ATTACK

[LoneLou]

Well today is the day, my sisters gone to her new flat, X is moving to his new place with HER and I'm all alone again with ds.
I am so very scared of being on my own for some reason. I live so far away from them all. X is cutting internet connection off tomorrow and this is the way I let my frustrations out and generally make myself feel better, what am I going to do without it???
I'm going to see counsellor today think I need it hey? Relate they also deal with break ups, hope this is going to help coz I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack at any minute (omg I sound freaky, is this normal?)
I have been on my own before, had my own place and everything but not been on my own for 7 years now!

so you wont be online any more???

Was wondering how you are doing.. it will take a few days but then you will get used to and enjoy living without your sis there..my bro used to live with me when i first became a single parent years ago, and i bawled my eyes out when he left (he went to australia!!)
Then a week later i met my (now ex)and wasnt lonely any more..
they do say when one door closes another one opens, but it doesnt always seem to work this way!!

I will be back online as soon as possible, trying to find the cheapest provider and trying to save pennies at minute.
seen counsellor went ok, cryed, talked, listened going for another session when they can fit me in. basically she told me that if he's not coming back I need to gather my strength for ds and myself and just move on, easier said than done. but I am gonna try and not let this, him, her beat me!!