Hi all,
My partner walked out on me and my almost 8mo baby last week. I have absolutely no idea how to navigate through this time. He said he can no longer support me emotionally and will never get better while he's with me (he began therapy in January)
My brother died just over a year ago while I was 7 weeks pregnant and trying to work through that was the hardest time of my life. Just when I feel like things have settled down, my partner leaves. I have given my everything to him. Supported him through our 6 year relationship and haven't received anything back. He can't understand why I'm not over the death of my brother yet (he was 32) and says I need to move on with my own life. Due this I have dealt with the grief on my own and don't feel like I've had anyone to lean on. When I say maternity leave and looking after baby is hard, I'm told it's my "job" and that's what maternity leave is. I understand that but some words of reassurance would be amazing or just a night off to have a bath or nap or meal out with friends to recoup a bit of energy. I've had to walk on eggshells for months with him as he is so angry all the time. Since having our baby he has been so tightly wound and I can't put a cup down without him thinking I'm slamming it down and in a mood with him. He then kicks off and treats me like I've said something, all based on his assumptions. If I'm sad and withdrawn about ju brother and have a moment he assumes he's done something wrong.
I don't know where to begin to plan a life for me and my little boy on our own. Since leaving he hasn't seen our boy and I'm so angry that he can just walk out on him. He's now demanding he had him every other weekend and weds nights or he'll stop paying the mortgage. I can't imagine not having my baby with me every night. He wouldnt put him down to sleep before he walked out because he got too frustated and would tell baby to F off and slam the door.
Im scared of how to afford going forward and have no idea where to start with sorting things out. I'm so worried I can't do this on my own. I used to have so much confidence and feel like I've slowly been chipped away at over time to the point that I don't believe I can do this. I never had a dad growing up and I'm devastated that our family is already broken.
So sorry for the long message, my head is all over and just want to make a good life for my baby x