Hi,
I've been with my husband for 12 years, married for 5. We've had rough patches throughout our relationship. But over the last couple of years I've realised there is no love there. I don't feel attractive, wanted, respected and he says I don't make him feel that way either. So it's mutual.
We have a 14 month old and I am currently 6 months pregnant. I can't see the situation improving as we are just two different people. I was 24 when I met him and he was 28, I have changed a lot since I was 24 having suffered with a lot of anxiety and self doubt and lack of confidence which has improved in recent years. I think I deserve a different type of relationship, not that I'll be ready for a new one for a while. But I look to the future when the kids are bigger and just don't see us being truly happy.
I'm petrified about being a single mum to 2 under 2 when the baby arrives in july. I don't have any family support during the week/ evenings. Im worries financially too, we have a mortgaged house, I couldn't afford to run it on my wages alone and couldn't afford to rent somewhere either. I doubt he will leave the household without a fight which I don't want to do and certainly don't have the energy at the moment.
Just looking for advice from people who have been through similar.