I dk if anyone else of you is in the same situation?
I was in a relationship for over 12 years.I cut short my friendships with my male firends as my ex didn't like any of them,I also cut off my female friends as my ex voiced that he fancied them,and having had previous boyfriends sleeping with two very longstanding so called best mates before,I was certain that any female friend would try it on,and that he'd take the bait!(how very irrational ,I know,but this is a guy who was very controlling,and who loved to put me and my looks down on a very regular basis,telling me I'd need to lose weight even though I was a size 8(!),who told me I needed a nose job and a boob job!.Why did I not leave him?For some crazy reason I loved him and put up with it)
I was such a confident person with a very busy social life before meeting him,and I could back then literally have my pick of men,but after a year with him,he made me feel like the most ugly,undesirable and worthless person on the planet!A control freak,yes,but I couldn't see what he was doing at the time)
Last summer we split up,and I realised,I have no friends,my life had been him!
It was sooo unhealthy,I can see that now..
I have made a few friends,got very close to one,but she'll be emigrating to the sunshine in a few weeks,lucky one!lol
I just wonder how I could have let it go that far for all those years,how I could have let myself be so controlled by this man?
I am slowly building my selfconfidence up,am dating the most drop dead gorgeous bloke,but I cannot for my life see understand how he possibly can fancy me!I get guys flirting with me,trying to chat me up,but I think they are taking the piss and must be having a laugh!All I can hear is the ex's comments on how all my flaws,and his put downs.How do you learn to really love yourself again,eh?