Is this depression or something else

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I got out of a 12 year abusive marriage about 3 months ago. I have good weeks and bad weeks. When things are good, I exercise, try to eat healthy and I focus on work and the kids and keeping busy. When things are bad, I get a bit of a brain fog, can't focus on work. Still take the kids out and do fun stuff but it kind of feels like I'm not there 100%. Just feel really down and can't make myself snap out of it let alone do some exercise. I end up eating rubbish.

I am in counselling, we've mostly focused on the abusive nature of my marriage and its been very emotional, but I feel like it has brought some clarity too.

Does this sound like depression? I don't want to take meds, but I just wish I could be more consistent. I am the only person caring for our kids right now and I want to be healthy and clear headed for them..

You've been through a trauma. It sounds like you are emotionally drained from that and the therapeutic process can be heavy as well, working with a counsellor and starting to recover. You're still healing, and trying to parent at the same time. You may have PTSD from that trauma, you may be depressed, or you may just need a restful time to heal and come back to yourself.

Thanks for your response @Macademiamum. Yes I think I need to be patient with myself, I guess there is a bit of me that's upset I'm not enjoying this new found freedom as much as I should. Peace has returned to our home though, which is a blessing.

Sorry for username switch:) still me.

IME the joy will come, for now there is some peace and a lot of recovering. Later there will be some joy and a lot of peace. It takes time and you will find a way to be happy again. It sounds like you're expecting a lot from yourself. Rome was not built in a day!

What are you doing for fun? For relaxation? You will find your happy if you stop pursuing your happy ending and stay pursuing what your happy doing