Xmas,don't you just love it?!(not!)

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Have to have a rant before I go nuts.
Ok,decided to go back to my native country with my girl for xmas.Booked the trip just when her dad had left me in the summer,and it seemed a v good idea at t time.
Now though I am starting to panic just a little bit!
Ok,thought it was going to be great to met up with the only person in my family who'm I really care for,my sister.But she lives in a different part of the country and has to work all xmas.So,xmas then,staying with my dad who gets on my nerves like something unbeliavable!(you know how some people just know how to push your buttons?Well,he's one of them,he moans about everything,is always right bla bla bla,and I know that his place is going to be totally filthy so I'll have to clean up big time!).Ok,that isn't really his fault.My mum who was the most amazing woman very sadly passed away 3 years ago,and dad never had to clean when he was with her,his eyesight is also so bad that he probably can't see the mountains of dust!.

Then we have my brother,you get mor luck squeezing blood out of a stone than getting a conversation going with him,seriously.Last time I met him i went to his wife-Have I done something to offend him?,-Oh,no,he's always like that,he never talks!,was her reply,great!He's 40,has never even been drunk,honest,and me?,well,we are v different!, have absolutely nothing in common at all.Think xmas is going to b a v chatty affair!Especially if we are going to pend a whole week w them,help!lol

Ok,the alternative,spend xmas here? Then we'd have the former mother in law (who's a wkd witch,according to her own son,well,she keeps telling our 4 year old daughter she is fat,even though she her bodyweight is totally normal!She heard her grandma saying all these things in front of her last time and was devastated,the grandma who's been on every diet going for as long as my ex can remember, no way is she going to give my 4 year old a complex about her weight!How can one be so cruel?)

Ok,I should stop moaning,but I think this is a xmas I won't be looking forward to!Maybe I should stay here at home w my little girl,have a great xmas,and just let the grandma think we are abroad!lol

stay here!!! if possible money wise, let the cowbag think your away, have a lovely time together!!!

where is home for you?

Its just going to be me and my dd this year, with possibility of my sis coming by. I ahve a few mates I can call on too.

Relaxed, quiet, and no hassle--bliss.

Yeah,I might stay here after all.My dad was supposed to come and meet us(me and my girl) at the airport in a country I've never been to(it's cheaper to fly there and then take a train to my native country),but now he's changed his mind,which puts me off going even more! I know I must sound like a right moaning old cow,but you kind of think"How often do I come home to visit?,and when I do you can't even be asked to come and meet us?
One of the conditions on me agreeing to come for xmas was if he came to collect us.Oh well!

I know my girl would love going somewhere where the chances are she may see some snow,but,I also think she'd be bored out of her brains before long too!lol

If we do end up staying here things won't be as bad,I'm ok for money as I've been pretty frugal:-) and can get us a nice tree,food,lots of decorations etc,and my sister has taken some time off,so will come over and spend New Years Eve here with us.it seems quite tempting!(plus,I will save a fortune on taxis,train fares etc that I could spend on something fun here!).
I do love the country where I was born,but it's kind of more fun in the summer when it's not minus 15!lol(and I can escape from my family!!!hahaha)

Christmas is a testing time of year at the best of times. It is definitely worse when it throws up all these issues. It's a shame it happens at all !!

It really is,one wish that one could just be grateful for having one another,and that all these dramas would not occur!

As if things couldn't get worse..My brother called last night.My sis has got herself involved w a guy who's now in prison (gang related),and she insists she'll wait for him to come out nxt year.My brother now wants us all to disown her,what?!
Ok,can see where he's coming from,she has 2 young kids and this guy is not a role model,BUT,she is my little sister,and I know our late mum would have been devastated if the family turned their back on her.We come from a v stable family background and for her to get involved with this kind of guy is,well,insane,but it's her life,isn't it? She's an adult,and if I tell her what I think about her seeing him,she will just do the total opposite anyway.
We all make our choices in life,but I just couldn't cut her out of my life.Fear if I do go home for xmas that my brother will think I have made up my mind as I'd be spending xmas with him,complicated ain't the word!