Is leaving my loveless relationship the right decision with a 18month old

[milfmummy]

Myself and my childs father (both 27 YO) have been together for 7 years and have an 18 month old DS!

Our relationship has been quite a rocky road since DS was born as his mother decided it was smart to dictate my motherhood and cause me PND due to her toxicity. Anyway. me and my child father argue quite alot to the point where i feel like i have lost feelings. Its become extremely toxic and I cant forget past situations where he has disrespected me to the core. I work it out for the sake of my child but now i feel like enough is enough. I know i have to start thinking of my own happiness, at the same time I dont want this breakup to have detrimental affects on my child as he is the light of my life. My partner knows he is physically bigger than me and uses this toxic masculinity to scare me and think he can have full control. But then he has good traits at the same time as he is financially supportive 100%. Buys me whatever i want and need. At the same time.. my heart knows that I am unhappy as I know I can be happier without him. My main focus is obviously my DS as I dont want to share him but I know I have to but I also know for a fact his mother will manipulate him into not liking me in the future as she is known for being controlling and toxic by not only me but other family members in their family. I dont want my son exposed to negativity.

Where im from its completely looked down upon if you leave a man especially with children involved. I know I will be judged but quite frankly.. i dont give a damn. I want happiness. At the same time I dont want a messy seperation, i dont want the co parenting to be toxic or so messy that I need to get courts involved :( but i have a feeling it will go down that route because he can be very stubborn and jealous.

I have some questions for other mums..
Did you ever regret leaving a toxic relationship for the child sake?
When do i get court orders?
Did you feel guilty for shaking up childs life?
How long does it take to get over baby daddy?
How long after did you put yourself back in the market?
Are men even interested in single mums?

Thanks for taking the time to read this!!

I meant to write 24 years old*

Hey, I'm 43 And have left 2 toxic relationships due to the men being dominators/ abusive etc. I have never regretted leaving a toxic relationship but I have regretted getting into them in the first place. Please do the freedom programme which women's aid run which helps you to identify these men. There are lots of them, you are young, you will easily find another partner but it is also easy to find another toxic partner, read up about boundaries, take your time, if you see any red flags, run for the hills.

Also, don't rush in, it's true what they say, fools rush in. It can work out but more often it doesn't. Take your time, you have so many years ahead of you. Don't fall into another toxic relationship.