i feel like shite

[fairyfly]

and it's not funny anymore

tell

oooo, so nice to see you on mn, happy me to have miss star

better hurry up coz I'm going to bed in a minute

aah there you are. Now what is upsetting you?

I loved a man the biggest pain in my life, my lovely kiara died, god she was wonderful, then ,y little babba boy had a heart problem,hr was fine, he is fine, then somone stuck his fingers whers theey domn't belong, and hjey ho i get drunk

understandable mate.

Who is Kiara?

I told you about kiara, she was the girl who i spent most of my younger life with, when she was 7 she had her spine rippped apart, then we just took the piss, i pushed her weel chair around, but she told me off, got drunk a lot,i kissed her face when she died, i loved her. i put her arms in the right place and buried her with a beautiful flower

And it still hurts.

no, i don't think so, i miss my best soul mate, kiara and chris, i don't have a choice anymore, i will do what i do and pretend its fine

night anorak and thanks ( god i want to feel sorry for myself and your really not aloud to)

Yes you are allowed to. Sometimes that's all there is and it's nothing to be ashamed of.

I and lots of other people too think you are incredibly strong. But you only get that way by putting up with a lot of sh**e.

You don't want to be a blank sheet of paper. What is the good of that? You are a rainbow one with plenty of writing. It's harder but it makes you prettier and way more interesting and useful to other people.

Goodnight too....xxxx

I love him, i really do, it is true and real love otherwise i would have sht up by now, i cannot wait to see him again so we can both piss our pants laughing and then have a great snog, come homme

You will get over him when you fall in love with someone else. However long that takes.

Suddenly he will look like the arsehole he is.

I have to go. I love you lots ff, stay strong, you know you are...xxx

lovely to talk to you again, promise one day i'll stop being self mauldling, take care xxxxxxxxxxxx

i want to meet robie, i have taken drugs, got fatter than i should be, but still am the greatest most arrogant bitch on this earth, we make a good couple

you were the love
for certain of my life
you were simply my beloved wife
I don't know for certain
how I'll live my life
now alone without my beloved wife
my beloved wife

I can't believe
I've lost the very best of me

you were the love
for certain of my life
you were simply my beloved wife
I don't know for certain
how I'll live my life
now alone without my beloved wife
my beloved wife

I can't believe
I've lost the very best of me

you were the love
for certain of my life
for fifty years simply me beloved wife
with another love I'll never lie again
it's you I can't deny
it's you I can't defy
a depth so deep into my grief
without my beloved soul
I renounce my life
as my right
now alone without my beloved wife
my beloved wife
my beloved wife

my love is gone she suffered long
in hours of pain

my love is gone
now my suffering begins

my love is gone
would it be wrong if I should
surrender all the joy in my life
go with her tonight?

my love is gone she suffered long
in hours of pain

my love is gone
would it be wrong if I should
just turn my face away from the light
go with her tonight?

A gutter full of rain
an empty picture frame
a house out at the edges of the city
never noticing the war
til it's right there at your door
and suddenly your hands are bloody

I was seeking to possess
now another girl's caress
is on your flesh
the bitterness is tasted
there's nobody in your chair
no hand to touch my hair
the sun even the air seems wasted

Let it go now
let it all slip away
and we'll start it all over again
me like a million others before
trying to make sense of the rain

Were these twenty years a dream
was it ever as it seemed
get to wonder if it really existed
cause the thief who stole my life
has taken too my faith
I can see now how the world gets
twisted

Let it go now
let it all slip away
and we'll start it all over again
me like a million others before
trying to make sense of the rain

In spite of all the shame
sometimes I hear your name
I think of us when we were younger
then I'm shutting out the noise
and I'm trying to hear the voice
that used to tell me love was
stronger

Light another cigarette
but the one I got's still lit
I can't seem to keep my fingers
steady
never noticing the war
til it's right there at your door
and suddenly your hands are bloody

life can get worse, you sill can say.. god what happend babe , i miss you still, he says yup, i say, shit, he says.. nothing. i still and always will think, the fittesst man one the earth

these are the days natalie mechant

when i hear music i just loose it, bounce boo to the boogie that be, what the hell you come here for,beat and jive, beat and jive

(((HUGS))) FF - I think you're going to feel pretty ropey this morning too xxx

FF, hope things are a bit better this morning. Did I miss your msn last night? If so I'm really sorry - was not ignoring - it always says 'online' with my broadband... I had gone to bed.

(((()))) xxxxxx

Hey fly lady, when you surface....sorry I had to run out on you last night. 5 kids in the house and of course they woke me up with a commotion this morning.

What are those lyrics about the beloved wife? - just beautiful.