It's a bit early to even think about it as I don't know how he feels - I've known him a long time, since I was pregnant with Ds1, and in the meantime we've both had other partners, I've now got two children.
I have seen him now and then, have taken to calling by at the motorbike shop where he works as it is near a nursery shop I go to a lot. I saw him there yesterday, he told me all about his trip to France to sort out his father's estate etc. Just a nice chat for about 10 minutes I suppose. It was lovely.
He kisses my cheek, is so lovely...I don't know if he is seeing anyone but mainly I don't know if he would even consider seeing me, because he used to want to be with me and I always said no as I was with Ds1's dad then.
I have since learnt a lot about what I really want, which men are good and which are not. I long to be with him and give him everything - have felt this way for about 18 months now. I told him I love him, before my new baby was born. He hugged me, seemed happy. I wanted to be with him even before i got pregnant, wanted to have children with him - and feel like I stuffed things up by having my lovely boys with other men before I realised I loved him.
I can't see any hope - I feel like I'd be asking too much - or if we did end up together, wouldn't he always resent the first children, resent looking after them? I wish they were his. He is beautiful to me.
If only I had been free whan he wanted me. Things would be so different now!