I think i am losing my mind

[ohheytheree]

LO is 7, its been me and her since day 1.

I don't think i am in a good "place" right now emotionally, im not happy, i feel overweight and ugly and just crap.

And i think its coming out in my parenting, like tonight i actually screamed. Like crazy woman screamed.

LO was being a little punk and acting up, maybe my fault i let her bedtime routine slip, she went to bed half hr ago rather than her usual 7pm. And was honestly a wild hyena crying and saying all sorts "i want nan" "you dont love me" "im sorry mum im being a brat" lol i think we are both crazy.

It was such an emotional rollercoaster but when this happens it makes me think im losing my mind, so out of control. I cant even handle my kids tantrum, she doesnt listen to me. Its like i have no authority. I try to do what i can, i dont spoil her i let her have fun but i have some general guidelines too.

Is this normal? Should i maybe see someone

It's hard, both as a single parent and in the current situation!

Have you ever had any counselling/ parenting advice / family support? Do you have friends you can talk to?

How did she react when you screamed?

It sounds like your self esteem is low and you aren't talking about yourself or your DD very kindly and DD is repeating them back to you. Bedtime sometimes goes to crap, you are the most important person to your DD.

Use YouTube for some workout videos to release endorphins and put you in a more positive mood, it'll also help with the weight. The refit revolution videos are very easy and are similar to zumba, it doesn't matter if you get the steps wrong because your are home and they are fun. Maybe before bed as part of the bedtime routine do a yoga video with your Dd, it'll be quality time and help relax you both ready for bed.