Hey!! 👋
So my little boys daddy left us when he was 7 weeks old. We had just bought a house, and was due to move in.
It was a tough time as lockdown made me feel very alone, and then I was diagnosed with PND. He didn’t understand how I was feeling or when I said “I just want you to come home after work instead of the pub I need you” he saw this as controlling and ended the relationship moving back to his mums.
It has been 12 weeks, and although I can feel it getting slightly easier it’s still really tough. I’m fine when I don’t see him, but as soon as I see him and he leaves it’s like I’m back to square one.
He doesn’t see baby boy very much as started a new job, works 6pm-2am then stays awake till 6/7 and sleeps all day until work again.
I am literally doing it all on my own for our boy.
I resent him, and he sent a text to me the other day by accident which wasn’t meant for me, so now I can’t shake off the feeling he is speaking to other girls.
I am trying my hardest to not show I am bothered, and I’m not sure how to continue this
Does it get any easier.....?
I am currently looking for somewhere for me and my lil one to live and feel this will be a good think for us both. But for some reason I can’t seem to shake off the feelings I have for his dad.
I don’t really know what I’m looking for here by writing this, maybe just to vent or see if anyone has been in any similar situations.
How often do you think he should be seeing his son?
He doesn’t work Friday or Saturdays.
Our little boy is 19 weeks and I don’t want to let him sleep over yet.. when his dad has had him for a few hours he rings me when he cries. It’s like he can’t handle it.