I've just become a single parent for the second time... Not the life I had planned for myself. My eldests dad was evil loads of domestic abuse etc etc and doesn't have any contact with his son which is perfect. But I'd met this dream of a man who had taken on my crazy situation and we had been together 4 years with a son of our own who isn't even a year old yet and he literally just falls into the same kind of behaviour patterns... Speaking to me nasty, taking money out of my account, not helping with house or kids, belittling me, humiliating me. All the things I never believed he'd do. I feel responsible for it though. Like what's so wrong with me that I turn these blokes into controlling arseholes?!?! I'm so heartbroken and just feel like the world has fell apart for me and the boys. The hurt is so deep it's shocked me. I love him so much but I can't be treated like that and when I look back its been going on for a while and just getting worse. I don't know what the point of this post is. I just feel so lost and heartbroken and lonely and like nothing will ever be OK again...even though I know it will.
Long story short... I'm a mess