So alone

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Name changed for this... my dd is nearly 2.5. Her father is not allowed to have contact with her... court ordered.

I just feel so sad this evening, with everything going on... what will happen to her if something happens to me? I have no family, and my mother is 75+ and not dealing well with getting old...

Her nursery has shut, and I am a teacher, but I have pretty severe asthma so not expected in...

I just feel so so so alone this evening.

Sorry meant to say, I feel like things would be a bit more bearable if I had someone to share things with... but I don't...

You’re not alone. I have 4 kids, ex is absent, no family.. all we can do is hope for the best

it's so bloody hard... you have 4! Honestly, I can just about cope with 1 and ddog...

It's just so shit being on your own at such scary times...

Have you got someone you can talk to? It is really tough and scary at the moment. Try and reach out to a friend or someone in your life if you can. They may well be pleased. Or continue to share on here if it helps. We may have to socially distance but we can still connect, albeit in sub-optimal ways right now. And could you try and do something nice for yourself? No matter how small like a bath, a magazine, a chocolate bar or something with your daughter. Take care.

All my friends have husbands or partners... they just don't get how hard it is on your own... I have no support. I normally work full time as well.

It just hit me that no-one would actually care if I died... not initially... well apart from dd and the dog... however they are a pretty good team so they would be ok...

Sorry to be so morbid, just feeling very down

Also, I've had to be pretty tough after all my ex put us through... I feel like I've spent so much time not showing my feelings that I actually can't anymore?

I've felt all along that this situation is harder for anyone with children, lovely though they are. If you are completely on your own you can please yourself what you do or just do nothing, get up and go to bed when you want.

Take heart, there will be others on here in your position who will understand completely how you feel, you'll receive support.

Haha, I wish I could please myself and do whatever I want, my girl is literally on the go from the second she wakes up, won't nap, very very very high energy... very first day of nothing doing (all swimming and activity classes cancelled) and I am bloody exhausted trying to tire her out.

I used to joke to my colleagues that I went to work for a break... that was not a joke.

It sucks and I’m afraid I don’t have much to recommend as feeling the same! I feel overwhelmed right now anyway following an insanely traumatic year that still feels like a weird nightmare. I am already depleted from that and now the prospect of no adult support for a long time. Working (in theory FT) with two kids at home 24/7 is going to be stressful. When I get ill, which presumably is going to happen at some point, what then?
But, what is the option? We are all going to have to get through this. I know others are facing scarier times with serious health problems. We are just going to have to get through this as best we can. There will be some bright bits to it like spending more time with the kids. Just need to focus on making the most of those, being super kind to yourself, and knowing it will pass.

Personally all I can advise is find something to do in the evenings to keep your mind occupied. I’m currently marking coursework for an exam board which helps, but you could write (a diary/novel/poetry) or watch documentaries or something. I’m not meaning this to be sort of academically snobbish I just find watching meaningless tv means my mind can wander much more than if I’m doing something that requires brain space. If you have a garden then get out there in the evenings (with a heater lamp or just a warm fleece) and either garden or read a book outside. I think relaxing and occupying your brain might make you feel less anxious, even though I know it doesn’t resolve the loneliness I think it helps reduce anxiety about it.

@Tiredtiredtired100 That’s really good advice. I’m feeling the same as OP and your words help, thank you.