Bored and lonely

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That's it really. Topic says it all.

I'm 28 and a mother to a beautiful soon to be 8 month old girl. She truly is the most amazing little baby and I am very lucky.

But I can't shake the feeling of loneliness and the terrible itch of boredom. I feel increasingly unfulfilled every single day.

I know I'm looking for something to sink my teeth into but it's difficult to find what that thing is that will make me happy.

Being a lone parent is so difficult. I'm broke and we're sat in temporary accommodation waiting to be housed by our council and we've been waiting for 6 months now. It'll undoubtedly be 6 more.

But even then I'm sat wondering if I'll be happy then? I'm constantly sat wondering when I'll be happy.

I'm grateful. Of course I'm grateful. To have what I have but it doesn't feel like it's enough right now. I spend hours on the internet between her naps pondering if anyone else out there feels the way that I do and what they did to break the unbearable cycle.

I cry at night because of it and I just never imagined my life being this way.

As happy as her development makes me it simply isn't enough for me to be fulfilled with myself and my own life.

Is college the answer? A relationship? I have a thousand questions and zero answers and one thing I know for sure is that I don't want to spend another day feeling like I do right now.

Has anybody out there beaten this ground Hogg day?

I’m sorry you are feeling like this but I’m not surprised. You are going through a very difficult situation and it is difficult to plan ahead and start building up a future when there is so much uncertainty in your life.

I’m sure that once you are out of temporary accommodation you will feel much better. I really don’t think trying to find a relationship is the best option in your current circumstances, but finding more single mums may be the best way to find company and the right source of support at this time.

I found a nice group through an association of separated parents, but you can ask your health visitor about organised groups or other mums raising babies on their own who may be happy to have your contact details passed to them.

Yeh I wouldn’t be trying to find a relationship with how you’re feeling at the moment either. I would worry you would become dependent on them. I would try to make some other friends, baby groups? Do you have any friends that you meet up with?