Suffering ptsd and parenting teen daughter

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I left my abusive 23 year marriage behind 18 months ago. I’m doing ok with the kids, but I still struggle to make decisions, have panic attacks because of ptsd, constantly question my judgement and have guilt trips... Basically I haven’t yet recovered.
My youngest daughter is 15, bright, feisty and difficult. She guilt trips me, tells me I’m a terrible mum, bla bla.
I’m really, really struggling to stay firm, fair and positive. She knows exactly how to cut me deeply - she learned from her dad.
She sees her dad every 2 or 3 weeks for a coffee, he is unreliable, awful and tends towards violence and I wouldn’t want her to see more of him. But I’m really struggling.
Are there any support networks I can tap into? Or any advice? Thanks x

Hey, i just wanted to say your not alone, i also suffer from ptsd so I get how tough it must be for you. Im a single mum of 4, my.exes (2 different dads) were emotionally and physically abusive, my eldest 2 (14and 11) have chosen not to see their dad again and the youngest 2s dad has gone off the radar completely. Im afraid I dont have any real suggestions for your struggles with your daughter, however I do find a lot of support from Facebook groups for Ptsd, if you wpuld like some info feel free to pm me. I find it a great help to be able to talk to others who know what im gojng through and its helped me greatly to understand my symptoms more xx

I'm 11 years out of a abusive relationship. It does get easier. I find the guilt hardest to live with. That I put my children through it. Have you tried woman's aid. Does your daughter have a counselor? The freedom programme is supposed to be very good.