Please give me some hope.

[bonfiresburning]

DD is a week old. I also have an 11yo DS. I am really struggling doing all this alone. DS sees his dad regularly but, despite me convincing myself he would, DDs dad has shown no interest and hasn't seen her.

I feel so tearful. So alone. Last night was awful. I got about half an hour of sleep and was scared I would fall asleep with DD as I have no one to pass her to. Or to take her for an hour.

I had my mum with me at the birth (her idea I will add) however she disappeared straight after so I sat alone on postnatal ward for 2 days afterwards. She also tried to escape coming to collect us despite having the car seat and promising to do so. That has just added to my feelings of worthlessness I think.

I am sorry for the ramble. Am sat in bed alone feeding DD ahead of what is bound to be another very long night.

I hope this gets better soon.

Congratulations op . I’m not sure if it gets better I think you get use to it and it becomes easier over time if that makes sense?? Personally I found the newborn stage easiest so far. I’m alone with 4 and although it’s tough it’s not impossible. (My ex also doesn’t want contact and hasn’t done in 3 years) put in a claim for cm if you haven’t already because even if he doesn’t want to see your dd he should still be paying. Things will improve it just takes time, it’s only been a week so still very early days