Scared I’ll never have another child

[Ginqueen20]

Sorry if this is insensitive in any way
I’m a lone mum and for several reasons that I didn’t chose the decision to have another baby was taken from me
Since then I have obsessed about having another and feel torn that someone else took that choice from me
I love my children with all my heart and I focus on them 100% before any one tells me to appreciate what I have as I do
This feeling hasn’t gone in 3 years and I’m at the point of thinking I need anti depressants to cope
It’s something I want more than anything but even as a lone parent with no opportunity to meet a potential father it isn’t going to happen
Can anyone advise me how they accepted they weren’t having more children or any way I can make it a reality as a lone mum
(I don’t want to add too much info as it is very outing and family are on here)
Please be kind I’ve been hurting over this for years

I’m not entirely sure if you’re saying you can’t have a baby or if you can but circumstances won’t allow it. I can empathise, I have one child and wanted to have another but the relationship broke down. I physically ache sometimes at the loss of the traditional family unit and more children I wanted.
I really think you should try a therapist as this seems like obsession, even addiction?