My ex moved a 6 hour journey away over 5 months ago, he hasnt bothered to see him since. Hes sent money twice calculating to 9 pounds a week. He has two jobs lives for free in his brothers appartment but showing off new clothes and shoes ect constantly on social media. Ive contacted child maintanance. He wont sign but whatever my son will see this when hes old enough so he knows im not at fault. My ex is constantly playing victim like for example 2 weeks ago i was cooking he asked to see our son and my nephews were over so it was loud i was making chilli so i said no were busy he asked are you even with my son (annoying comment since hes only ever been babysat twice appart from me obviously in work) i said what i do is none of your buisness. After my son ate i called him he didnt pick up later on i then saw he instantly after i said were busy posted a photo on social media claiming i refuse him to see our son i inboxed him furious telling him to never commenting on my parenting especially claiming i refuse you to see him after i have every weeks since youve been gone asked u when ur going to see him. He hasnt replied in 2 weeks but posts photos claiming he misses him. Idiot. Anyway in the 5 months he has every month said hes going to come and hasnt shown up. Im worried this will continue and my son will start to pick up on it. Hes 18 months now. He cant be a father when and if he just feels like it. Im just so worried he will just break his little heart with promises that never follow through...like for instance he promises very unrealistic things like a lot of money and stupid things not just time, im just so worried my son will feel not worthy of his love or time and let down. Trust issues and become withrawn ect because i know what i do wont matter because what his dads doing is traumatic. I know im looking at a scenareo of a year down the line but i dont want it to get to that point. He also believes in a huge amount of conspiracies and worried what hell say to my son like gravity isnt real, slavery isnt real, world is flat, women are all trans on tv just crazy shit and obsessed woth illuminati and the devil. My son is so happy, confident and healthy ive done everything for him water babies, baby sensory, massage co sleep extended bf ive tried my best with him and i know it just takes one dickhead move to start breaking a wall ive built. He was also extreamly abusive towards me so i also am scared of him and do have huge anxiety of being alone with him. His views on women arent great which is something i dont want around my son. Any advice. He does have strong male role models that are consistent in his life he sees my father and brother work every day and i take him on the farm often to watch them ect they read to him and he loves them and they are so positive they have no anger or anything violent about them they wake early work hard and very respectful not just of women but everyone equally. I just hate he knows where i live because i am scared. I sometimes lock my bedroom door at night as extra precaution even though hes 6 hours away. I know ive just blurted this out like word vomit but im tired and stressed and need it off ny chest and see how other people would react in my situation??