So I feel that my 5 year relationship as gone as far as it will ever go, there is no more room for growth and I feel that we both have just settled for each other.
Our relationship has never been amazing If I'm being totally honest, we've had more downs than ups.
I know that after being together for 5 years I would have happy memory's to look back on and laugh, but I've had to block out them all as it's too painful to revisit.
I feel it's now time to go, I've been putting this off for months ( maybe even a year or so) as I'm scared of the unknown,
You see I moved to where I am now 5 years ago, we got together took quick and maybe that's why it turned out the way it did, because we never really knew each other. I moved to another town after 4 months of knowing the guy and then a few months later i was pregnant with our son,
Loads of things that happened could only been writing in a soap opera but anyways no point telling you all about how he did me wrong and lies etc etc, let's just say he done a-lot to lose my trust.
Now I'm looking to apply to colleges and uni's in my home town ( 3 hours from where we live now) and he wants to come with me. I really don't think I want him to tho, I feel that if I do leave with my son then it's a clean Slate for us and that I want my life away from him so i can get myself a career and learn to love myself again.
My son starts primary school ( pre-school) in the summer ( UK) and I need to think of him because once he's in school that's it, I don't want to move him half way through school as that would have a big impact on him.
my head speaking sense but my heart just doesn't want to let go of this person.
How did you singles mothers cope with being a single parent? And any Advice on controlling your emotions?