My husband (ex!) and I finally took the decision to separate a couple of weeks ago. Neither of us did anything wrong, we grew apart, didn't love each other, felt drained and trapped, permanently irritated and snappy with each other etcetc.
I have felt a sense of relief personally, but we have a 2 year old son my heart is absolutely breaking for, and I feel so guilty for him who still calls for daddy in the night and in the mornings.
Before (way before) separating we were planning on going on holiday for a long weekend with my family. My ex still wanted to come to spend time with our son, I was happy for us all to go and insisted we will make it work as long as we can stay friendly, my family were aware of the situation and still happy as he's still the father of our son.
The hard bit... since we broke up, literally within a day or 2 he was on plenty of fish and tinder. It was ok, the love has gone for me and I had no feelings of jealousy. But he kept leaving his phone on plenty of fish in very obvious places with the screen locked on for ages. One time he was giving me a lift and as I went to sit in the car it was on the seat facing up, the inbox bit with all these pictures of girls he's been messaging, and our son was in the car. Another time our son was sat on his lap whilst he's scrolling through tinder and I had to ask him not to whilst our son is there. This is all within the last week. And now I found out he has a date tomorrow night and that kind of flipped me. We have been in a relationship for 6 years, married for 4, had a son, bought a house, and he can move on like that?
So I've told him I can't have him come on the family holiday, I can't bear being around him if I can help it, I want nothing to do with him, just to be pleasant for our son.
Now I am looking at going on the family holiday on my own, which is fine my family will be there to support me, but I will have to hire a car, I am not a confident driver at all let alone the idea of driving a hire car with my son in. I'm scared, can someone tell me it will be alright please?